Period of fails and frustrations

I made this post especially to show how much I was struggling at this period. After I managed to do 15 seconds kickup my goal was of course.. 30 seconds.

For about 3 months I was only doing kickups in the range of 10 to 15 seconds. Like my brain was programmed to not hold it longer than that.

Here are some of my failed attempts. You can clearly notice how nervous I was in this video.

And finally on my next video I was able to break that platoe for at least 3 seconds more. I did 18 seconds kickup, but I wasn't satisfied with my form at all. Too wobbly and banana line.